36 - Greatly grew around the grief of divorce, COVID-19, and deconstruction of long-held beliefs. I am still fighting for hope and courage for the future.
31 - Entering COVID, pregnant with the last baby I would ever have. Navigating some marital complications.
26 - In the thick of post-partum depression, with three children in diapers, I am beginning the process of dealing with my faith not working. Considering a trip to Scotland.
21—This is the first time a man has declared his love for me. I am in shock, uncertain still if I am in love with him, but I really want to be. I am also wondering if I can still get a BA in history and maybe go to Germany.
16 - A surprise party with some family friends, most gifts for my hope chest, the way that all homeschooled girls prepared to be wives and mothers.
11 - Pretty sure I got rollerblades for my birthday.
6 - I don’t remember any details about this birthday. My mom only threw parties for ages 4, 8, and 12, so it was probably just grandparents and other immediate family.
If I were 72, looking back at my 36-year-old self, what would I tell her?
I would say that she went through hell and came out kinder. The efforts she made every day, even when she didn’t want to get out of bed, made a difference. I would remind her that no one can take her voice and that she used her voice for herself and others.
Anyway, thats enough reflecting. I am taking the kids bowling for my birthday and later we will have cake!
Hope to see you in a few months.
Happy birthday!!